Harapan itu Hope. Hope itu Harapan.

Assalamualaikum.

Anda punya harapan? Bagus. Aku pun ada. Tapi..meh nak kastau..

Berharap pada sesuatu yang tidak pasti sama sahaja seperti kita membuang masa.

Kalau asyik letak harapan je, tapi tak ada usaha, sama jugak macam buang masa. Kan?

Terkadang, harapan kita cipta, usaha kita berganda, tetapi..akhirnya, harapan hancur juga mungkin oleh kerana sebab-sebab  yang lain. Jangan sedih... pasti ada hikmahnya. Be strong. Jangan nangis..

Di sini, ingin aku cadangkan..

Sandarkan harapanmu pada Allah.

Pasti tiada kekecewaan. Bila kita yakin dengan janji Allah, Allah pasti tidak akan sia-siakan harapan kita.

Suatu ketika, ada yang memberi pesan.

Seorang individu yang telah melantik diri beliau sebagai “Penjaga” aku.

[Huh. Self-appointed. Aku tak lantik pun dia.]

Beliau telah berpesan..

“Awak, jangan letak harapan yang tinggi dekat sesiapa pun. Awak hanya boleh berharap pada Allah je. Sebab nanti pasti awak tak akan kecewa. Percayalah cakap saya. Kalau berharap sangat pada manusia ni, nanti satu hari kalau kecewa, sakit. Sangat sakit rasa kecewa tu.”

Sebelum beliau sampaikan pesanan di atas kat aku, beliau cakap begini:

“Awak, you can count on me tau. Anytime. I will definitely be there for you. Saya nak jadi Guardian awak.” 

Ha-ha-ha. Sangat ironi kerana, pada saat akhirnya, beliau telah menghilangkan diri dengan jayanya.

Hilang, seperti debu yang ditiup angin.  

Akan tetapi, pesanan beliau ada benarnya. Jangan sandarkan harapan yang terlalu tinggi pada sesuatu yang  tidak pasti. The only option, the only solution, is Allah. 

[ Guardian apanya kalau hilang saat aku memerlukan? Individu tersebut mulutnya penuh gula. Ceh!]

Remember...

HE listens to every single thoughts.

Shining in the sand and sun,

Like the pearl upon the ocean.

Feel me and heal me.

I Miss You

I can feel it.
I miss her.

She asked me, "Esok you free? Can we sit together and talk just like the old times?"
And I replied, "Sure, I will let you know when we can sit together and have a nice chat."
I was very excited. 
Cant stop smiling.

Both of us have our own schedules.
More appropriate way to say this is, We both have our own world now.
Your world, I can see from far and I admire it.
My world, you will never want to take a look at (it is horrible, I think.)

I am a good observer, says you.
I replied, I will be your eyes when you cant see the things you should see.
You said, it's very poetic the way I said it.
And I smiled.
How I miss you.

May Allah bless you.
I will love you, forever.
And, will always be your eyes and ears.
Love, Fathi.

Correction, please..

“I feel normal when I am with Lavender and Butterfly. I feel strangely normal and normal and normal when I am with Kareena and Karisma. Ahaha, now I am giving names to them. Well, they are nice names. Aren’t they?”

Now…here is the correction.

I do not know why I called her Karisma. She is supposed to be Manisha :D

Yes..I remember that song. Aamir Khan with Manisha in that Bollywood movie titled Maan. It’s us. Haha. I am Aamir Khan and Zie would be Manisha.

That is what Sue told me. She will keep on repeating saying that for-ever. Haha.

Sue is Kareena, Zie is Manisha and I am Aamir Khan. Heheh.

I hope my facts here are correct and valid. Oh dear, I shouldn’t simply give names to people. It is just not nice and not proper.

I will try my best to address people appropriately after this.

You should just be happy.

Be yourself and improve yourself first.

Stop looking at the others and stop blaming yourself for not being able to be as cool as they are.

Love, Fathi.