Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Staring on a blank page.
Have no ideas to write down anything.
Corporate Fraud.
Anyone?
Oh Allah,
I know this is challenging.
Please give me some patience so that I can endure.
=__= apakah cerita yang harus saya ceritakan di hadapan kelas nanti?
Fraud itu adalah penipuan.
Dan menipu itu berdosa.
Impaknya pada masyarakat sangat besar.
Dan ia akan meragut maruah anda dengan kejamnya.
Di mana integriti?
Di mana harga diri?
Di mana Iman?
Di mana akal?
Sanggup kau calarkan maruah agama demi kepentingan diri.
Cetek akal.
Aku faham apa itu fraud.
Saat mahu dimuntahkan kefahaman di atas kertas,
terasa sukar.
Kerana kami akan dinilai.
Skop yang teramat besar dan luas. Mahu specific dan detail? Seperti tidak mampu.
Dr.Fadzilah, will you be mad if I don't meet your expectation?
Berusaha!!!!!
Kisah Fraud dan Hari hujan.
Sekian.
Oct 13, 2012
Word-less
Word-less
Speech-less
Point-less
Am I the only one who always does things wrongly?
How shameful.
Forgive me, Ya Rabb.
Speech-less
Point-less
Am I the only one who always does things wrongly?
How shameful.
Forgive me, Ya Rabb.
Reminiscing Sabah – Two – 25 Sept
1
Today would be the first day of my journey touring Sabah. Mehehe. I woke up for Subuh prayer at 5. That’s super early and pretty amazing. The water was soooo sejuk. Awesome!
Today would be the first day of my journey touring Sabah. Mehehe. I woke up for Subuh prayer at 5. That’s super early and pretty amazing. The water was soooo sejuk. Awesome!
Hari ni, destinasi kami, Sandakan. Can’t wait!
2
I thought Abang Kiki would come with us. Unfortunately, he’s not. Only the four of us went. Oh, yes. When I woke up that morning, I couldn’t see the view outside the kitchen window. Gelap kan.memanglah. Tapi..tapi..when it was at 7-ish at that time, I went to the kitchen to refill my water bottle and guess what I saw? Ada pemandangan cantik dekat belakang rumah Pak Bong. Sawah padi hijau….sangat cantik! Subhanallah. Awesome ji le to have that kind of scenery at your own house. Wo hen xihuan!
I thought Abang Kiki would come with us. Unfortunately, he’s not. Only the four of us went. Oh, yes. When I woke up that morning, I couldn’t see the view outside the kitchen window. Gelap kan.memanglah. Tapi..tapi..when it was at 7-ish at that time, I went to the kitchen to refill my water bottle and guess what I saw? Ada pemandangan cantik dekat belakang rumah Pak Bong. Sawah padi hijau….sangat cantik! Subhanallah. Awesome ji le to have that kind of scenery at your own house. Wo hen xihuan!
3
I couldn’t stop laughing sepanjang perjalanan.
Kak Sitilah punca segala-galanya. We saw lots of KUDA kat tepi jalan tau. Sedang meragut rumput dengan gembira di tepi bukit yang curam.
Kak Siti: Tinah, nampak tak kat tepi jalan tu ada apa?
Tinah: Nampak! *super amazed* Bestnya..
Kak Siti: Tau tak tu apa? Itulah kerbau nama dia. Pernah tengok tak kerbau?
Tinah: “-______- *sabar jelah* apa pulak kerbau…
Kak Siti: *evil laugh*
I couldn’t stop laughing sepanjang perjalanan.
Kak Sitilah punca segala-galanya. We saw lots of KUDA kat tepi jalan tau. Sedang meragut rumput dengan gembira di tepi bukit yang curam.
Kak Siti: Tinah, nampak tak kat tepi jalan tu ada apa?
Tinah: Nampak! *super amazed* Bestnya..
Kak Siti: Tau tak tu apa? Itulah kerbau nama dia. Pernah tengok tak kerbau?
Tinah: “-______- *sabar jelah* apa pulak kerbau…
Kak Siti: *evil laugh*
Haha..jahat. Itulah modal beliau sebagai seorang tourist
guide yang cemerlang.
4
It took us about 6 hours to arrive there. Jauhnya Sandakan. But I enjoyed the journey. Sightseeing dengan jayanya. I was informed that we will be staying for one night at Cik Nor’s brother’s house at Bukit Garam. We passed by Kinabatangan before we arrived there and Kak Siti was busy talking about Bung Mukhtar.
Kak Siti: Eh, ni kawasan Bung Mukhtar kan? Mana rumah dia? Tak nampak pun. Tinah, cuba tengok kalau-kalau nampak dia.
Tinah: “-______- *long silence* Kak, it doesn’t make any sense.
Kak Siti: Haaa..! Kau nampak sungai kat bawah tu? Situlah tempat si Bung Mukhtar main terjun-terjun sungai dengan kawan dia si Pandalela.
Tinah: HAHAHAHA…… *continue laughing* Tipuuuu…..!
And it went on like that until we arrived at the house.
It took us about 6 hours to arrive there. Jauhnya Sandakan. But I enjoyed the journey. Sightseeing dengan jayanya. I was informed that we will be staying for one night at Cik Nor’s brother’s house at Bukit Garam. We passed by Kinabatangan before we arrived there and Kak Siti was busy talking about Bung Mukhtar.
Kak Siti: Eh, ni kawasan Bung Mukhtar kan? Mana rumah dia? Tak nampak pun. Tinah, cuba tengok kalau-kalau nampak dia.
Tinah: “-______- *long silence* Kak, it doesn’t make any sense.
Kak Siti: Haaa..! Kau nampak sungai kat bawah tu? Situlah tempat si Bung Mukhtar main terjun-terjun sungai dengan kawan dia si Pandalela.
Tinah: HAHAHAHA…… *continue laughing* Tipuuuu…..!
And it went on like that until we arrived at the house.
5
Bukit Garam.
It was almost Maghrib when we arrived. The place was very nice. Cantik dan tenang. We were very tired. Especially Pak Bong. He has been driving for 8 hours. Kesiannya..
Feeling warm and comfortable, we ate dinner and slept early. We practically have nothing to do and at 9 pm, all of us went to bed. BUT… I couldn’t sleep. As usual, my very weird mindset or maybe biological setting should I name it?? I just couldn’t sleep at a new place. I ended up watching Kak Siti sleeping and hearing her talking in sleep. I was frightened at first. I thought she was talking to me. But suddenly she was laughing after quite a long silence. Hahaha.. Kak..that was cute! (and scary too.mehehe)
6
Thank You Uncle Ridhuan and family =) A night spent at Bukit Garam was memorable.
I ate well, I rest well and I laughed a lot.
7
Dia telefon. Dia justify mengapa dia hilang selama 7 hari. Fair enough. “Terima kasih. Sekarang saya tahu di tahap mana saya sedang berdiri.”
Haha. Dramatik sungguh.
Bukit Garam.
It was almost Maghrib when we arrived. The place was very nice. Cantik dan tenang. We were very tired. Especially Pak Bong. He has been driving for 8 hours. Kesiannya..
Feeling warm and comfortable, we ate dinner and slept early. We practically have nothing to do and at 9 pm, all of us went to bed. BUT… I couldn’t sleep. As usual, my very weird mindset or maybe biological setting should I name it?? I just couldn’t sleep at a new place. I ended up watching Kak Siti sleeping and hearing her talking in sleep. I was frightened at first. I thought she was talking to me. But suddenly she was laughing after quite a long silence. Hahaha.. Kak..that was cute! (and scary too.mehehe)
6
Thank You Uncle Ridhuan and family =) A night spent at Bukit Garam was memorable.
I ate well, I rest well and I laughed a lot.
7
Dia telefon. Dia justify mengapa dia hilang selama 7 hari. Fair enough. “Terima kasih. Sekarang saya tahu di tahap mana saya sedang berdiri.”
Haha. Dramatik sungguh.
Oct 9, 2012
Reminiscing Sabah - Day One
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
1
Kaki kanan melangkah masuk ke dalam kapal terbang. Alhamdulillah, it went well down there masa bagi boarding pass and what not. *I couldn't stop smiling when looking at the stewardess. They looked beautiful and they were super waaaaangi....* Haha. Do not imagine unpleasant thoughts okay. I was just admiring how beautiful they were and..it was awesome to get the chance to like stare at them and ask questions and smile at them and ask for directions and..apa-apa jelah lagi. Well, we paid. They should give first class service.
Saat Inche Pilot beritahu ketinggian bas terbang di atas langit tidak bertiang, perut rasa kecut sekejap.
Subhanallah. Tingginya.
One thing that made me feel proud of myself was, I didn't feel dizzy or anything. Haha. So I can tell Abah that I am awesome sebab berjaya naik kapal terbang tanpa sebarang komplikasi.
2
I arrived a bit late at Kota Kinabalu due to the delay. So, my uncle, my aunt and Kak Siti were waiting for me outside for quite some time I think. Aduhai, kasihan. I saw Kak Siti and Mak Cik Nor once I came out from the..err..what do you call that place? Err...I dont know. But, it was after I passed the Immigration Counter.
Feeling extremely HAPPY, because I landed safely and finally get the chance to step my feet on the land of Sabah, "Oh my, do tell me I am not dreaming!".
3
I was tired but my brain and my heart refused to shut down during our way back to Keningau. Hebatlah Pak Bong boleh drive malam-malam, lalu jalan pusing-pusing dan berkabus. Laju pulak tu. Awesome.
I just listened to Kak Siti and Pak Bong's conversation without having the effort to digest what they were discussing about. Right next to me, Mak Cik Nor was sleeping soundly.
4
Hai Sabah, Saya dah sampai.
Esok hari Dua. Cannot wait to explore.
1
Kaki kanan melangkah masuk ke dalam kapal terbang. Alhamdulillah, it went well down there masa bagi boarding pass and what not. *I couldn't stop smiling when looking at the stewardess. They looked beautiful and they were super waaaaangi....* Haha. Do not imagine unpleasant thoughts okay. I was just admiring how beautiful they were and..it was awesome to get the chance to like stare at them and ask questions and smile at them and ask for directions and..apa-apa jelah lagi. Well, we paid. They should give first class service.
Saat Inche Pilot beritahu ketinggian bas terbang di atas langit tidak bertiang, perut rasa kecut sekejap.
Subhanallah. Tingginya.
One thing that made me feel proud of myself was, I didn't feel dizzy or anything. Haha. So I can tell Abah that I am awesome sebab berjaya naik kapal terbang tanpa sebarang komplikasi.
2
I arrived a bit late at Kota Kinabalu due to the delay. So, my uncle, my aunt and Kak Siti were waiting for me outside for quite some time I think. Aduhai, kasihan. I saw Kak Siti and Mak Cik Nor once I came out from the..err..what do you call that place? Err...I dont know. But, it was after I passed the Immigration Counter.
Feeling extremely HAPPY, because I landed safely and finally get the chance to step my feet on the land of Sabah, "Oh my, do tell me I am not dreaming!".
3
I was tired but my brain and my heart refused to shut down during our way back to Keningau. Hebatlah Pak Bong boleh drive malam-malam, lalu jalan pusing-pusing dan berkabus. Laju pulak tu. Awesome.
I just listened to Kak Siti and Pak Bong's conversation without having the effort to digest what they were discussing about. Right next to me, Mak Cik Nor was sleeping soundly.
4
Hai Sabah, Saya dah sampai.
Esok hari Dua. Cannot wait to explore.
Oct 8, 2012
Reminiscing Sabah-Leaving
1
It was a very long cuti raya for me. I have never felt that way before. I couldn't control myself from looking at the phone, b-e-r-u-l-a-n-g kali. Soo many times until my heart felt extremely tired. Adik told me to stay cool and let time decides. And that was exactly what Umi told me the night before. Cepatlah masa berlalu. Nak pergi Sabah!
2
Friday, 24th September.
Kak Siti called me early on Friday just to make sure that I don't forget. Haha. How can I forget? I was extremely excited to go to Sabah. And nervous too.
Abah was not really in a good mood that day. The atmosphere was just not right. I sent a text message to Adik, "Did I do anything wrong? Or Abah memang sedang tiada mood? I am scared. Petang ni nak bertolak dah. Macam mana ni dik?"
Adik replied: "Alaah..relax..Abah penat tu. Jangan fikir bukan-bukan."
Oh yes. I think, I should just keep quiet. Barangkali, Abah terlalu penat.
I was busy making sure that I am not the one who made Abah feel upset until I forgot to pack my bags! Oh my! I have like less than an hour to pack my baju and stuff. Disaster! Sempatkah mahu kejar masa?
3
It's almost time. Abah drove reaaally fast. And, he couldn't stop complaining about my bad time management. Phew! Lega. At least I felt normal bila Abah bising macam tu. =D
Tak kisah lah lambat sikit yang penting Abah is Abah yang normal sekarang. I just couldn't stand the silence. When we reached the airport, I hugged Umi and left. Abah was the one who accompanied me and helped me with my bags. I couldn't stop the tears running down my cheeks. I hugged Abah. I was being so emotional at that time. In front of the police officer. In front of.. err.. so many people. Lantak ah. I said to Abah, "I am sorry." I just feel like saying that.
Terharu. Abah hugged me and said, "Take care. Jangan sedih-sedih."
4
Now I am alone at the departure hall. Well, not literally alone. With my bags and nervous little heart, I went to find the gate number. *Ah..merungut sorang-sorang ni yang tak best ni*
Abah was so worried. He called me for gazillion of times just to make sure that I am not LOST.
Haha...Alhamdulillah, it went very well. Walaupun flight delay for about an hour because of the bad weather condition. It was raining dekat Sabah. Gloomy. Seperti kondisi hati saat itu.
5
Yang telefon tadi adalah dia. Mimpi barangkali.
Weeee.....~ Awesome sungguh perasaan dapat naik kapal terbang. Saya seorang diri okay. Ulang suara. Seorang diri. Well, the other passengers were there of course. Tapi saya tiada teman. Cayalah!
Kak Siti was waiting for me at the other end. And I was ready to let my heart fly free. Free and away from everything. Dramatic aren't I? Lantak ah.
Sabah...! =D
It was a very long cuti raya for me. I have never felt that way before. I couldn't control myself from looking at the phone, b-e-r-u-l-a-n-g kali. Soo many times until my heart felt extremely tired. Adik told me to stay cool and let time decides. And that was exactly what Umi told me the night before. Cepatlah masa berlalu. Nak pergi Sabah!
2
Friday, 24th September.
Kak Siti called me early on Friday just to make sure that I don't forget. Haha. How can I forget? I was extremely excited to go to Sabah. And nervous too.
Abah was not really in a good mood that day. The atmosphere was just not right. I sent a text message to Adik, "Did I do anything wrong? Or Abah memang sedang tiada mood? I am scared. Petang ni nak bertolak dah. Macam mana ni dik?"
Adik replied: "Alaah..relax..Abah penat tu. Jangan fikir bukan-bukan."
Oh yes. I think, I should just keep quiet. Barangkali, Abah terlalu penat.
I was busy making sure that I am not the one who made Abah feel upset until I forgot to pack my bags! Oh my! I have like less than an hour to pack my baju and stuff. Disaster! Sempatkah mahu kejar masa?
3
It's almost time. Abah drove reaaally fast. And, he couldn't stop complaining about my bad time management. Phew! Lega. At least I felt normal bila Abah bising macam tu. =D
Tak kisah lah lambat sikit yang penting Abah is Abah yang normal sekarang. I just couldn't stand the silence. When we reached the airport, I hugged Umi and left. Abah was the one who accompanied me and helped me with my bags. I couldn't stop the tears running down my cheeks. I hugged Abah. I was being so emotional at that time. In front of the police officer. In front of.. err.. so many people. Lantak ah. I said to Abah, "I am sorry." I just feel like saying that.
Terharu. Abah hugged me and said, "Take care. Jangan sedih-sedih."
4
Now I am alone at the departure hall. Well, not literally alone. With my bags and nervous little heart, I went to find the gate number. *Ah..merungut sorang-sorang ni yang tak best ni*
Abah was so worried. He called me for gazillion of times just to make sure that I am not LOST.
Haha...Alhamdulillah, it went very well. Walaupun flight delay for about an hour because of the bad weather condition. It was raining dekat Sabah. Gloomy. Seperti kondisi hati saat itu.
5
Yang telefon tadi adalah dia. Mimpi barangkali.
Weeee.....~ Awesome sungguh perasaan dapat naik kapal terbang. Saya seorang diri okay. Ulang suara. Seorang diri. Well, the other passengers were there of course. Tapi saya tiada teman. Cayalah!
Kak Siti was waiting for me at the other end. And I was ready to let my heart fly free. Free and away from everything. Dramatic aren't I? Lantak ah.
Sabah...! =D
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