Reminiscing Sabah: Day Four & Day Five - 27th & 28th Sept

I still remember how it was waktu pergi Sabah last year. It was like 'THE MOMENT' of realization. Not that I know it will end this way. Ehem.

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So, kalau datang Sabah, rumah Pak Bong, tapi tak tour Pekan Keningau ... tak sah la kan? Heheh. Kiranya Hari Empat, memang jalan-jalan Keningau jelah. And it was actually a day off for Kak Et jugak. Sebab esoknya kita nak pergi ke Kota Kinabalu. Definitely kena dapatkan rehat. ^_____^
Selama ni dengar Keningau je beribu-ribu kali. Hah. Sekarang, jalan sampai puas. Heheh. Naaiss..

2
Hari Lima. We went to Kota Kinabalu. Both me and Kak Et. Akak bawa ikut Jalan Kimanis. Nak tunjuk gunung tinggi kata beliau. It was indeed a breathtaking scenery! Memang...Subhanallah =) Cantik. Sangat.
We stopped for a while dekat Papar. Beli kuih cincin yang Makcik Nor dan Pak Bong bawa balik ke Semenanjung selalu tu. Mehehe. And...Belacan jugak. Tapi, I dunno what happen to all of the belacan now. Sebab saya tak makan belacan barangkali? Memangg...pastu tak tanya khabar pun kat belacan tu. Hahaaa.. Habis dah la kot kan? Keh3. Pastu we met sepupu kak Et...and I met her and I was amazed sebaab....my cousin ada Chinese cousins..wuwuwu. Awesome. Oh....DAAN selepas itu......Kami lalu Banjaran Crocker. Yang kita belajar kat dalam subjek Geografi tulah...haaaa.... I dah lalu... Keh3.

3
Sampai Kota Kinabalu, we went to tengok laut. Rindu pulak dekat moment tu. Just me and kak Et. heheh. Pastu akak bawak pergi solat di Masjid Terapung. Subhanallah. Cantik. Dan.. Best =) Lepas dah siap semua urusan kak Et bawak jalan-jalan setakat untuk petang tersebut, we headed off to rumah kawan kak Et. Masih ada aura Syawal kan. Jadi..kita pergi berjalan raya. Haha. bukan jalan raya yang jalan raya untuk kenderaan tu. Tapi jalan raya. Whatever. Oh dan, what I remembered the most adalah...
KAWAN2 BAIK KAK ET SANGAT CANTIK.
Dan....anak kawan kak Et sangaaaaaaaaat comel.......Subhanallah...
Rasa macam...nak kawin dengan orang yang ada Chinese look boleh? Heheh.

4
Malam. Kita tidur di rumah Pak Bong yang di Kota Kinabalu. Ada Abang Arif kat sana. Abang Arif handsome. Hahahaha. Ok. This was the moment. Which I could not forget. The most.

Dah 29hb September waktu tu.

Kita dah lama kenal. 8 bulan. Kalau kita pasangan suami isteri, probably, sekarang awak pregnant our baby nak masuk bulan ketujuh dah.

Dropped jaw. Literally. Dropped jaw.
O____O"????

What was that Tan Sri? I thought your heart was with someone else. Why used me as an example? I was....cemas for real at that time. Perasaan tak boleh dibuat main. I takleh reverse dah time tu. Dah jauh sangat rasanya. And I was ... pasrah. If it is meant for me, I am very much grateful. If not...tak mengapa. Sebab I was still positive in helping you to get in touch with my senior. Sebab that was what you asked for. Remember?

Pandai Tan Sri eh bagi ujian dekat saya...

And the mengaji session was nice by the way ^_^

Ok. Enough of my rambling session.

I miss Kak Et. Sangat banyak.

A Note to Self

Bismillahirrahmahirrahim

I was so happy that I passed the plagiarism software's basic requirements recently. And of course, I felt overjoyed. Overjoyed. Ok. Sekarang boleh foresee what's going to happen next? Kehkehkeh.

I was sitting next to my senior while doing my work and then..she informed me about her percentage that she got as the requirement to pass the plagiarism software. I was so kagum! Like seriously kagum. She got lower percentage than me. And suddenly a sinking emotion was developing inside me. Great.Now whaaattt.... -_-''

Oklah.Oklah..Bukan envy. Bukan envy. I am sure that it is not a feeling of jealousy. I am super happy for her sebab she passed it with flying colors. Truly, I am happy for her.
Tapi..tapi... I feel like... Kenapa la aku tak pandai macam dia? Struggle sampai nangis-nangis pastu baru dapat lepas software tu. Kakak tu buat tenang-tenang je...then boleh pass dengan mudah. wuwuwu. It is the inferior me talking..!!
Now can you see the comparing business??

Not good. Not good..

I should punish myself for having this kind of attitude.

Sekarang cuba tengok apa Hadith 1 pesan pada kita:

It is narrated on the authority of Amir al-Mu'minin (Leader of the Believers), Abu Hafs 'Umar bin al-Khattab (may Allah be pleased with him), who said: I heard the Messenger of Allah (peace be upon him), say:

"Actions are according to intentions, and everyone will get what was intended. Whoever migrates with an intention for Allah and His messenger, the migration will be for the sake of Allah and his Messenger. And whoever migrates for worldly gain or to marry a woman, then his migration will be for the sake of whatever he migrated for."

Related by Bukhari & Muslim

Source: http://www.40hadithnawawi.com/index.php/the-hadiths/hadith-1

Subhanallah..

Sekarang tengok balik niat sendiri. Mungkin I finished my work with the niat to get high marks. Bukan sebab ilmu..wuwuwu..
Astaghfirullahal'azim.

Kakak, saya sukakan anda. Saya admire anda. Saya tidak cemburu, cuma kecewa dengan diri sendiri T_T"

May Allah forgive us and guide us to the right path. Allahumma Amin...

Reminiscing Sabah - Day Three - 26th Sept

1
Morning. We went to Lahad Datu. It was a sudden plan because one of Pak Bong's students meninggal dunia. It was at Kg. Bugis. And I asked Kak Et, kenapa nama kampung tu Bugis? The answer is simple. Ramai orang Bugis. We went there and waited until the it was over. We even went to tanah perkuburan and me and Kak Et watched from far how the jenazah was dikebumikan. It was...for me..a lifetime experience. Because, I got to see the jenazah close up. And my nose remembered the smell of the jenazah until the night when we arrived home. Gaaahh...Faathinah and her mindset problems.
2
After all that was over, we went to Pasar Lahad Datu and bought lots of ikan and udang. So many udang...! I cannot eat udang T_T such a waste. If only I brought with me my allergic medicines, I would have the opportunity to eat all the big big big and delicious UDANG.
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Then we stopped for prayers on our way back to Keningau at one of the mosques dekat tepi jalan. Pak Bong kata masa Pak Tan datang Sabah, they went to the same mosque as well. Hahaha. Saya pun dah sampai.... =P


It was a great comfort to have such a kind company...on the line.
Hehe. Well, dear you, I am very much thankful sebab anda sudi sms dengan saya.

Kak Et, pada hari tersebut, lutut beliau lebam..sebab beliau terlanggar err...pintu kereta kalau tak silap. Kesian lutut beliau.

Kurang matangnya saya...Hihi

Assalamualaikum..

Eid Mubarak..

^_^ Semoga Allah melindungi kita dibawah rahmat kasih-sayangNya sentiasa.

Tadi I was looking back at my older posts..and reading them made me laugh, with great err..humility.
I was weighing myself.
Soooo immature..and..not that professional. Bhahaha..kata free flow wiriting kan..
But it does reflect my personality. It improves as time passes by. Alhamdulillah.
No more vulgar words... (Vulgar words banyak ke?? Hisshh....)
And....maturity seems to like....ada sikitlah kalau tak banyak pun. Boleh senyum bahagia tak sekarang? heheh.

Aaand....because of maintenance and changing of formats...ada beberapa posts yang tak boleh dibaca and I have to re-edit them as soon as possible.

Dr.Rosli's advice banyak kali dah bergema dekat telinga.

Critical Reading.... Critical Reading.....  READING....... REAAAADD.....

Hahahaha.

OK Dr.Rosli. Got the message, Sir!

Will start reading, right away ^_^

Take care lovelies..!

Just let go if it is not meant to be yours

Assalamualaikum

It is true when it comes to the saying of "We have no control over our hearts". Who then controls our hearts if it not us? Allah. HE has the power and the ability to turn over your heart preferences at any time of the day. No doubt. Therefore, what you can do is to always make du'a and ask Allah to protect you from any hardships in life. Well, just let us put it this way. If things are not meant to be for us, we should just forget about it and move on. No use to lament over things that have passed as it will affect your life completely. Negativity does not bring any fruits of positivity in life. You do know about that right?

When life gets hard and you realized that nothing is under your control, that is when you have to realize that our life in this world serves only for one ultimate purpose. 'Ubudiyyah. Everything must be set and targeted as an Ibadah to Allah. Remember lovelies =) Total submission to Allah is our main goal in life. That is what Islam is all about. And this very business is not depressing at all! Believe me =)

Oklah, contohnya..I want to be friends with Anuar Zain so bad...but it will just not work out, you know. The possibility is just too small and it is almost near to no hope, at all. So what do we do? Just move on lah. You are not going to die. And nothing bad is going to happen to you if you cannot be friends with Anuar Zain, kan? Alaaa...Anuar Zain je... Tak ada apa sangatlaah..

And let's say...you want to be friends with Ameen Misran, a popular blogger, or Maria Elena, a popular blogger as well..BUT you just could not get the opportunity to do that. It will not be something that is very depressing for you kan? Well, sometimes, we just could not get certain things in life and we have to live with that fact. =) You can still watch them from far kan? And that is .... good enough , I guess? He he he.
Well, be a stalker lah. And follow good things from them. They will get the rewards from Allah as well. Allahumma Amin. In Sha Allah.. Be a ... good stalker okay? ^_^ (Haha.. I am a good observer. Macam buruk je jadi stalker).

And...if .... if.... you are not meant to be with the love of your life... Just be strong okay? I am sure that Allah has better plans for you. Sometimes, kalau orang dah tak suka, kita tak boleh nak paksa kan? Yelah, bukan kita yang control hati manusia... I know it can be hurtful...and like a total disaster. But, please lovelies...just remember...ALLAH sentiasa ada untuk kita ^_^

If.... (Nauzubillah) It happens to be that the person I admire so much leave me to be with a better person, (Contoh, he pilih another girl yang way too nice from me..way too beautiful from me...and way too precious than me) .. I will force myself to accept the fact that he does not want me anymore. Mungkin jodoh dia dengan saya sekejap sahaja. Kan? Tak apa...as long as Allah takkan tinggalkan saya. I have HIM. That is more than enough. Plus, bagus apa kalau dia dapat kahwin dengan perempuan yang lebih baik =) Maybe..I will be brokenhearted and choose to apply the detachment strategy for quite some time if that happens. But that will not last for too long. I will find ways and get ready with possible and workable back up plans to move on with my life. In Sha Allah...moga Allah sentiasa bantu saya untuk jadi yang lebih baik. Walaupun.....heartbroken bukan perkara yang main-main...tapi, Allah je yang boleh sembuhkan luka hati kita.

Ah. Talking about rejection is a never ending business kan?

Saya Faham.

And forgive me sebab I feel like writing about this malam ni.

Innnallahama'assobirin...

Dear you, I hope you will live a happy life, with or without me =)

Demi Allah

Demi Allah,

Saya sayang beliau.

Semoga Allah jadikan kami jiran didalam Syurga Allah nanti.

Mohon Allah sentiasa berkati kehidupan beliau dan keluarga.

Mohon Allah kekalkan ukhwah kami.

Walaupun saya kata Bukit Kayu Hitam dekat Johor, beliau dengan bersahaja gelakkan saya dan pujuk saya supaya jangan stress sangat.

:') Allah
Saya sayang beliau.

Sangat sangat.

Too Much

Assalamualaikum..

Kekadang, kita tak sangka pun kita akan buat sesuatu yang kita tak pernah jangka kita akan buat.

Yes, sometimes, we have gone too much.
We have gone too far.
Leka sampai tak ada yang sedar kita dah jauh sangat pergi.
Tak ada yang boleh tarik kita, selamatkan kita.
Masa tu, satu je tempat kita nak minta bantuan.
ALLAH.

Orang kata, bila dah susah, baru nak cari Allah.
Tapi, better kita ada rasa nak kembali daripada tak ada rasa langsung. Ya bukan?

Tan Sri sangat baik. Saya..speechless.
I have caused so much pain for us. Yet, you still forgive me and say nice and soothing words to me.
I couldn't ask for more.
If it is destined for us to reach that very destination, I am very much grateful.
Kalau tak sampai ke penghujung perjalanan, mohon Allah kurniakan Redha.

Tan Sri asked me to listened to this.

Sami Yusuf, Make Me Strong.

Terima Kasih Tan Sri.

Define MA #1

Assalamualaikum..

Salam bahagia koraaang..!

Aie, saya tahu awak tak suka orang guna Salam Bahagia, tapi saya nak guna jugak harini :D

I am currently having MASTERS DILEMMA. I wanted to label it as REGRET sebenarnya but that doesn't sound optimistic at all. In fact, I did not regret pun my decision to pursue my study up to this level. Mengada-ngadalah kalau nak regret bila dah start sekarang ni. Memang nak mintak kena marah dari banyak pihak laaah. Haha. Tak. Tak. Tak menyesal pun. Alhamdulillah sebab Allah bagi peluang ni pada saya :)

I would say that the curiosity within has been awakened by now. It is only the first week of the  semester but I am very much overwhelmed with everything. Every single thing. I am soooo curious to know what will happen next. Baru first week dah rasa macam nak nangis..camana la the upcoming weeks nanti. Mungkin akan tersenyum bahagia? Hee.. mari ber-wishful thinking. As days passed by, I have realised that MA programme requires one to actually strive for the best.
Memang takleh nak bermalas-malasan dah macam time degree dulu.

You hate reading? Then do not continue up to this path.
You are tired of doing research? Then..it will be hard for you to live a life.
T_T taak tipu nii......

My dilemma is just...nak continue ke nak stop. Bhahaha.. teruknya perangaai. Just because of Research Methods punya subject, I am all drained and strained and.. *insert more dramatic words* kakaka.

Oklah, to cut things short, semua orang harus ada satu perkara penting ni sebelum nak sambung MA in Literature; in fact in any MA programmes, which is:

                     
                      KNOW what YOUR PASSION is.
Aaand...
               HAVE A TOPIC in mind :)


SO......during your undergraduates, try to look at possible and interesting and manageable and potential topics for research purpose :) if you have already decided on what to talk about and what to write for your thesis or dissertation, then...you are SAFE AND SOUND!

Kalau tak ada pun tak apa....but it can be a real pain for you because you will have to find a suitable topic in a hurry and in a rushing and in a very....unpleasant environment and mood. Haha. (which I am experiencing currently).

And to define Masters is the need to have a good networking with people around you. See.... Tengok.... Betapa Islam pun dah tekankan tentang ini dan ianya tidak tertakluk hanya untuk definisi Masters sahaja. To have a good network and strong relationship with others is actually a bonus for you! One thing that is most important about this is the fact that they will be willing to pray for you! Don't you underestimate the power of Du'a. Doa itu adalah senjata Mu'min. Hopefully Allah will make us be one of the Mu'mineen.

For now, I just have this to be delivered in here. Ah..I dah muntahkan segalanya in here in the most simplest form. Bhahaha. It has just been a week and my brain is almost reaching to the 'fatigue' state. (Hiperbola ni..hiperbola).

Salam Sayang dan..

Assalamualaikum ^_^

It is always a pleasure to help your loved ones. Especially when they are in need of help or assisstance. Feeling bila kita tahu ada orang nak tolong angkat kita bila kita jatuh tu rasa sangat berharga. Berharga hanya bila kita tahu betapa sakitnya kalau jatuh tapi kena bangun sendiri.

Helping hand...kalau tak ada..Sakit kan?

Saaaakit...

Atau..katakanlah, you just went through a disastrous day and felt like there is no more hope to move on and that you have no other options or even back up plans..and your life will be completely ruined kalau tak boleh selesaikan masalah yang sedang membelenggu kita..laptop kita kena virus, assignment yang nak kena hantar esok pagi jam 8, dah hilang sebab kena virus dan kita tak ada back up langsung..langsung tak ada..dan sekarang dah jam 2 pagi..beberapa jam lagi nak pukul 8..dan kita dah panik tahap nak botakkan kepala dengan hanya sekali rembatan.......dan TIBA-TIBA...datang sorang kawan offer nak bantu kita redo our assignment. Kawan suruh kita rehat, dia yang berpuli-puli siapkan kerja kita.

Subhanallah..! *tarik nafas legaaaaa*

Allah...indahnya kalau ada kawan yang berhati mulia macam tu kan?

Tapi kalau kawan yang macam tu tak ada...?

*hujan lebat kilat petir guruh banjir*

Tengok. Penting tak amalan bantu-membantu?

Penting..

Tapi..jangan lupa..apa pun yang jadi, kita ada Allah :) jadi, tak bolehlah hilang harapan dan rasa macam tak boleh nak bawak bertenang kan? Sebab bila kita yakin dengan Allah, Allah pasti akan bantu kita.

Baiknya Tuhan kita :')

Oleh itu, selagi kita mampu, bantulah orang keliling yang memerlukan bantuan. Tak rugi tolong orang ni. Allah suka :)

Memang peringatan untuk diri sendiri jugak ni T_T

The Truth

It was a fine day. Registration at UPM went well, Alhamdulillah. Didn't expect something big was coming on that day. I was thinking that Tan Sri will have lunch with me and send me back after we have settled the registration process. But something else happened.

We didn't go back right after UPM was settled. Tan Sri brought me to a mosque near their family's house and asked me to join for a Jenazah prayer. It was a friend of Tan Sri who died earlier on that day. Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'un. Tan Sri did mention to me about that friend who died because of a car accident when we were waiting at the registration counter. Tapi, to my fikiran, tak sangka dia akan bawak pegi attend solat jenazah tu. Ok. Takpe. It wasn't a big issue after all. Apa salahnya kita tunaikan fardhu kifayah kan? Cuma, it was a bit shocking for me lah. sebab sudden kot. huhu.

At the mosque, it was pretty late for us to pray zohor sebab registration took a very long time. So, we prayed and it came to my knowledge that jenazah masih belum dimandikan. Alhamdulillah, sempat la Tan Sri nak jemaah sama solat jenazah nanti. So..saya pun boleh join sekali (ini sangat mendebarkan sebab dah lama tak buat solat jenazah).

While waiting, a crowd suddenly walked towards the place where I was sitting at that time, which was at the entrance of the female's prayer hall. And I saw them carrying the jenazah yang baru lepas dimandikan into the female's prayer hall. Ada makcik-makcik near me pushed me inside and I ended up sitting very close to the jenazah. very close. memang I can see the jenazah right in front of my naked eyes.

I was terrified. Masa tu serius tangan menggigil, dahi berpeluh. Bukan takut sebab jenazah tu ke apa. Tapi takut sebab... Realiti Mati depan mata.

Satu je perkara yang rewind dalam kepala time tu : Mati itu Pasti.

Macam-macam perasaan ada time tu. Rasa nak menangis adalah perasaan paling susah nak control waktu tu. Memang fikir macam-macam sangat waktu tu.

Macam mana kalau aku tak sempat bertaubat dan mati?

Dah bersedia ke aku nak menghadap Allah?

Apa rasanya ahli keluarga yang lain kalau mereka dalam situasi yang sama?

Hati rasa hiba sangat bila tengok family members budak tu sedih, nangis2.
Waktu tu la kepala nak recall balik adab-adab bila tengok jenazah.
Waktu tu la nak ingat balik apa perlu buat time-time macam ni?
Bercampur baur rasa.

I saw Tan Sri from far.
Rasa sayu tengok dia.

And as expected, Tan Sri sampaikan pesanan beliau pulak lepas balik dari masjid tu. Serius rasa nak pecah empangan air mata. Tan Sri kata tak salah kalau cakap pasal realiti mati. Persediaan katanya.
Tapi, memang telinga taknak dengar statement "Kalau saya meninggal dunia dulu...". (But I listened to it anyway. Takleh lari dah. Kena dengar jugak).

And that day, the whole day, the whole conversation between me and Tan Sri made me realized that Mati itu Pasti dan kita memang kena buat persediaan. Dunia ni tempat singgah kita je.

Anda sudah bersedia untuk bawa bekalan nak jumpa Allah?

isk. isk. T_T

Coming Back

Assalamualaikum..

Hi everyone..! Apa khabar? Semua sihat? Iman baik? Solat teratur? hee.. I have always been like this since I first started blogging. I rarely update my blog and I feel extremely negative when coming back here again. Whatever-lah. Kick all the negativity..iyaah..! 

A lot has been going on in my life. There will be no more updates on IIUM life. (Macamlah I talk a lot about UIA in here kan. Padahal tak ada pun. Hahah! ) Yes. I am now an ex-UIA-an. Alhamdulillah. Couldn't express more; the state of my happiness; except by praising Allah and thanking HIM for all the blessings that He has given to me. And to us. Yes. 

Count your blessings! ^_^

Alhamdulillah. Now that I have finished my journey dekat UIA, I will now be pursuing my next stage of education at UPM. Tadaa..! The place that I have never think of before. Pergh. Kalau sebelum ni I just wanted to come to UPM to take a look at all the kambings and their trees,tiba-tiba sekarang I am a student in UPM! Naah...ambik. hehe. 

2 months of holiday dah buat my brain rusty to the max. Thanks to the strong vibe of lazi-ness. Adehh. Why laah people cannot be istiqamah in doing good things and practicing good habits? Based on my readings, among the reasons why people cannot cope being istiqamah is because of sins. All the sins and maksiat that people do will block themselves from being istiqamah.Next on the list is because of lack of determination and motivation. Motivation..haaaa...

Astaghfirullah. So, peringatan untuk diri sendiri dan those who are reading this, check balik kita ada buat dosa apa. Pasaipa laa susah sangat nak istiqamah kan. Muhasabah diri balik. Phew. 

"Allah suka orang yang usaha" - E, 2013

Jadi, untuk menjadi seorang yang istiqamah, kenalah usaha. Kan?

Moga Allah sayang!

^_^

#random 2

Wangi....

Wangi....

Wangi dia buat orang tarik nafas dan senyum.

Bau baby wangi kan?

Sangat wangi.

Hai kewangian saya.

Hai kesayangan saya.

Awak lah. Ya, awak.

i

Getting ripped away from routine





It feels..





Empty.

Because she is so high and high above me
So lovely
I know where I belong
and
Nothing's gonna happen.

Because he is so high and high above me
So lovely
I know where I belong
and
Nothing's gonna happen.

Because He is so high and high above me
So lovely
I know where I belong
and
I know that
Something good is definitely gonna happen.

I believe in hope.

Peringatan

Kawan: Awak ada topup kan untuk saya?

Saya: Tak ada pun. Kenapa?

Kawan: Saya dapat topup wak..

Saya: Waahh..jelesnya..nak jugaakk...

Kawan: Apa ni..tak baik cemburu dengan rezeki orang lain..

Ouch.

Tak baik cemburu dengan rezeki orang lain.

Betul tu.

Argh. Kenapalah selalu sangat lupa.

Masing-masing ada rezeki masing-masing.

Jangan cemburu dengan rezeki orang lain. Kan tak baik tu.

Live Well.

Dear you,
If only you know how much i admire you.
If only you know how much i respect you.
If only you know how much i adore you...

i do not mean to compare you with anyone else.
because the business of comparing people is too mean, too cruel.
in my eyes, you are perfectly made for me. 
I thank Him for giving me the opportunity to know you.

i treasure every moment we have together.
i am very much glad that both of us have created so many inside jokes.
jokes that no one would ever understand except us two.

i am sorry for being inferior.
i do not mean to hurt you.
will you ever trust my words?

I really hope that you can see me as a person who tries hard to change for the better.

I will definitely be missing you.
Definitely.

Sorry for not applying the you-attitude concept.
But you do get my heart's message, don't you?

Thank you for always being by my side.
May Allah reward your warm kindness with Jannah.
Amin Ya Rabb.

Semoga ukhwah kita dipelihara Allah. Sentiasa.

Degup jantung laju.
Resah datang entah dari mana.
Terkilan kerana terlepas waktu siaran langsung.

Waktu lain siaran langsung juga. Tapi dah kira ulangan. Tak original!

Sedih.

Kipas pusing laju. Sangat.
Serabut hati seperti putaran bilah kipas.

Saya tanya: Nasi Putih?

Dia jawab: Jarang makan nasi warna putih..selalunya dah letak   kuah dia ada warna.

-_-"   Lihatlah betapa manusia suka menyakitkan hati manusia yang lain.

Tragis sungguh.

gagaga.....so comel....!

Hey You!

Nampak tak carrot tu besar?

Yang pegi masuk seketul-seketul dalam mulut tu kenapa?

Ah. Comel sangat binatang kambing nih.

Kambing betul.

PS: I Love You

Sebelah Kanan: Cik Permaisuri ^_^

They don't know how much I admire you.

They don't know how much you suffer because of me.

I am sorry for being such a burden all these years.

You are awesome.

THANK YOU

<3

Nampak tak gambar LOVE?

Hehe.

Thank You Suhailah.

I will definitely miss you.

Kenduri dan Tembikai Merah

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Tembikai merah diambil dan disuapkan ke mulut.

Satu. 
Sedapnya.

Dua.
Juicy!

Tiga.
Harap-harap tak ada yang perasan saya dah makan tiga slice.

Empat.
Ah..ambil pinggan teruslah.

*ambil buah tembikai dengan muka tidak bersalah. 5 potong semuanya.*

Dalam kereta, sudah terbatuk-batuk. Hah! Rasakan. Padan muka. Nak sangat makan tembikai kan.

Kepada Anda Yang Boleh Makan Tembikai Tanpa Perlu Batuk Selepas Itu:

1. Hargailah kesihatan anda kerana Allah beri anda peluang untuk makan tembikai tanpa rasa serba salah.
2. Makanlah tembikai dengan rasa gembira kerana ada manusia yang sedih kerana tak dapat makan tembikai.
3. Tembikai sangat sedap. Simpan dalam peti ais. Lagi sedap dimakan bila sejuk. OK?


Kesihatan yang baik itu harta yang sangat berharga.

I have felt this kind of disappointment before when my access to TOKhairul's blog got denied. And when hundreds of my messages were ignored by a friend. This time around, my access to SitiRohaniHashim's blog got denied.

-_-  nampak tak hati saya cedera?

This post is specially written to Dearest Kak Roe.

You don't know me Kak Roe. Yes. That is because I am a stalker. (Apsal la bangga sangat mengaku jadi stalker. haih) I found your blog when I was blog hopping not long ago. It was so inspiring to read your posts. Very much. I admire the way you express your feelings in your writing. *mata bersinar-sinar*

And yes, you do look like Fasha Sanda. Sekali pandang. Dua kali pandang, macam Kak Roe lah :)

I saw you at KFC KLCC on April 2013 but I did not get the chance to tegur you. You are so..real. Yes. Real sebab saya nampak anda di alam nyata. Selama ni baca blog Kak Roe je.

The thing is, kalau saya pergi tegur Kak Roe, mesti Kak Roe akan terkejut.

Siapakah? 

Ya..stalker anda. Saya.

Teruk kan saya? *tekup muka dengan bantal*

Saya rasa sangat kecewa sebab tak sempat nak berkenalan dengan Kak Roe dengan lebih dekat lagi.

Apa pun, may Allah bless you always :)

Saya kecewa ni. Dunia...nampak tak?

Ya, selamat malam. Ada sesiapa lagi nak bagi saya message : ACCESS DENIED?

Mungkin anda wahai pemilik kereta buatan Malaysia. Saya tahu anda sedang marah dan kecewa.

Tidak mengapa.

Aie, jom kita bina empayar kita bersama!

Semoga Allah berkati kehidupan kami.

Amin Ya Rabb.

#random1

He closed his eyes and took a deep breath.
"Is this possible?" Asked him.
"I have told myself, I would never fall for anyone else."
Doubt has come to pay a visit.

But the moment when he saw her, his heart refused to beat at a normal pace.
That was not normal.
This girl has an aura. Unique.
His heart just could not resist.

I bet this must be the devil's work.
He was very sure that he was getting himself into a great trouble.
Trying his best, he did ignore what his heart was feeling at that moment.

He knew that his heart has become cold.
Cold as ice.
Especially when it creates an unending confusion.
His heart has been stepped on so violently.
He would never repeat the same mistake.

But.
But..that very girl gave him a sudden warmth.
He had wish to have that kind of warmth before.
He longed for that warmth.
To him, it is very comforting.
Yes. Now his heart refused to just simply chase her away.

He made a decision.
To break the coldness of his heart,
With a little touch of her warmth.

Sure.
He does not want the past to come and visit him.
The girl saved him.
He now believes in that. Strongly.

"Okay, I am now certain. I shall take her with me. She will be mine from today onwards. Say yes to a new tablet...!!!!"

Okay, finally, the boy gets his new tablet and he really feels that the new gadget is err...his new girlfriend.
*sigh*
Gila gadget punya manusia.

Didikan

Bukan mudah untuk mendidik
Minda beritahu akal
Itu hakikat.
Perhati diri
Mudahkah mendidik hati?
Liar. 
Sukar dikawal,
Terutama saat minda dan hati tidak sekufu.

Ibu Ayah contoh terunggul.
Susah payah mendidik anak-anak.
Terkadang, hasilnya mengagumkan.
Terkadang, hampa di tengah jalan.
Tidak semua yang diharapkan menjadi.

Soal mendidik hati.
Terkadang tersungkur.
Jadi api di siang hari.
Dingin sedingin salju di tengahari.
Hangat kerana dengki di malam hari.
Bila waktu tenang menyelinap?
Ada ruang kah untuk rasa kasih?

Kerana kurang didikan, 
hati sukar dibentuk.
Sukar dipujuk.
Terkadang, jadi keras,
macam batu.

Usaha itu perlu,
dalam mendidik.
Pastinya perlu berterusan.
Tanpa rasa putus asa.

Didik hati ke arah kebaikan.
Ajar dia selalu tenang.
Nasihat dia, selalu kuat.
Jangan kalah sembarangan.
Perlu teguh setiap masa.

Hati kita milik Dia.
Apa pun terlintas, Dia tahu.
Niat murni perlu ada.
Agar Dia tahu kita mahu berubah.
Dia lihat pada usaha.
Jangan gusar.
Kerana Dia ada
Setiap langkah, kita punya teman.
DIA ada. 
Yakin.


Didik saya ke arah kebaikan.
Saya suka bila anda nasihat saya.
Terima kasih.

Care to share? I'm ready to listen.

Phone's vibrating. Oh. An incoming call.
"Assalamualaikum."

"Waalaikumussalam. How's your progress? Ready to talk about Shakespeare tomorrow?"

"Not sure. Haven't done final revision yet."

"Kenapa macam tak sure ni? Come. Share what you know. My intention is to test you. Let's pretend like this is a pre-exam session."

"So nice of you. Thank you." 

Conversation ends.

Concentrate on getting well soon okay? I'll be fine, InsyaAllah.

****

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Mari test! Okay. First and foremost, Shakespeare is not a learned man. He is not a man who went to universities and learn drama or literature formally. However, even though he is not scholarly, his presentation of work is very great and the evidence is that he was considered as one of the great Elizabethan writers.

Just so you know, Elizabethan era or..during this zaman, it was when Queen Elizabeth reigned. Therefore, Elizabethan drama refers to the plays produced while Queen Elizabeth was in power in England and that was from 1558 until 1603.
Kalau nak tahu, it was during this time lah the entertainment industry during Elizabethan period prosper. Because the public started or began to attend plays in large number. That's cute. Attend tengok drama secara berjemaah. Tapi..tapi..they watch drama or plays at an open space and it wasn't at all like how we watch theatre today where everyone is silent and pay attention to the actors' performance. During Shakespeare's time, watching a play is like in today's example, like you watch a music band performing. People walk, and eat, and talk, and they just cannot sit still. One more thing to note, during this time jugaklah all the prostitution berleluasa and plague was started or should I say..err...merebak? Yes. Sebab unhygienic place people spent time at. Most famous theater and the home of many Shakespeare's plays were performed was the Globe Theater (1599).

Shakespear's canonical works are:
37 plays were written
154 sonnets were composed
and...2 long narrative poems were written.

He was a famous figure in tragedy plays. Kiranya, he's like an expert in writing tragedy plays lah. Because the message is well delivered to the audience and the plot is organised in a very impressive manner. The beauty of the language used by him is also one of the main important elements in Shakespeare's writing. Among the great tragedies produced were Hamlet, Macbeth, King Lear and Othello. In all these four tragedies, it focuses on the tragic hero presented in the plays. Whereby every tragic hero has his own tragic flaw. Their own tragic flaws are the main reason or cause of their downfall. They come from a noble background and they are known as the great, important figures in a society. Example, King, Prince..or any noble man. The reason as to why they have to be an important figure is mainly because, the higher their status are, the harder they will fall in the end. So, Tragedy in Elizabethan era must end with catastrophe like the death of the main character, or senang cerita, the death of the tragic hero. This in return will invoke catharsis in the audience. So, basically, because of the tragic hero's tragic flaw, they actually learned something and they know that what they have done is wrong. Therefore, they get the moral lesson soon before dying. That's awesome, isn't it?
I love Macbeth the most. Oh, and Hamlet. And King Lear. So kesian lah all of them. Memang catharsis itu wujud semasa membaca tragedi-tragedi tersebut.

Not only that, Shakespeare is famous for his comedies as well. One thing to note is that,

Shakespeare does not follow exactly the Aristotle's Poetic rule. The rule is, the unity of action, the unity of time, the unity of place. His plots are complex but it is integrated. As I mentioned before, his plots are very impressive. Aaand.. Madam Farizah said, he is very good at plotting the play proving that he is a skillful storyteller. He invented new way of writing his work by mixing the genres. Yes. A mixed genre.
And usually:
1. In his comedy, it always begins with a great conflict and has tragic elements.
2. In his tragedy, there is the element of jokes. Yes. Jokes.

So, one of the comedies is Twelfth Night. Have you guys watched She's The Man? Dah tengok kan? Okay, 
that movie is the adaptation of Shakespeare's Twelfth Night.

Okay...should I continue with sonnet?
No...
No...Tak larat....
InsyaAllah..ingat points..and I can membebel in exam kejap lagi.

Exam is at 3pm.
Pray for me loves!

Oh, Allah..mohon dipermudahkan segalanya. Amin.

Love, Fathi.

Blissful

1 Jan 2013

Lagi 4 minit jam menunjukkan pukul 9 pagi. Ya, pukul 9 pagi.
*Click* 
Handphone saya mengeluarkan bunyi. Oh, ada sms.

Sender: Z
Text:
"sori mms busuk anda xdpt msuk ke dlm henset beta yg teragong ini"

Oh..beliau. MMS tempoh hari? Heheh. Tidak mengapa kalau tak dapat pun. MMS tu bertujuan untuk meng-jeles-kan anda je sebenarnya. Biasalah, manusia kan nak gaduh je kerjanya kalau tak puas hati. You sent me MMS yang sgt tak cool ok. So I berniat nak balas bagi you jeles. Gambar Shake Herbalife Perisa Antibiotik je pun. Tapi, you didn't get the MMS pun kan? Nampak sgt niat I tak baik *Malu dgn diri sendiri* 
Sorry anyways. You lah asyik sakitkan hati I. [wekk..ape I you I you ni...!]
No big deal mister. Takpe.Takpe.

Harap maaf. Reply saya dalam hati: 
"sori sms anda xdpt di-reply oleh diri beta yang hensem teramat ini. Ingat janji 2013 beta? Yeah. Akan beta kotakan janji tersebut. Live well."

Di atas adalah salah satu daripada contoh tema di dalam Waiting for Godot (1953) ke 1952? Confused. Written by Samuel Beckett. Nama manja, Samuel Basket, coined by Ms. Suhailah in 2012. The example above illustrated the theme of nothingness. Why nothingness?
Because all I can see is the element of nothingness in the relationship if it continues.
Being in a friend-zone will definitely not bring any positive progress because both of us will end up fighting on small and unimportant things. Friends do not do that. Being in a more-than-a-friend-zone will even more bring zero benefits. This is due to the unending fights and unimportant topics discussed by both of us. No progress too. No improvement, stagnant, therefore, nothingness.
How can a relationship be the medium for us to gain rewards? Well, when you do good things for each other and when you appreciate one another and when you know there are benefits for both of you in the relationship. Especially benefits yang boleh pandu kita ke arah jalan Allah. Bukan the feeling of uncertainty and perasaan kita-ni-dah-kenapa-asyik-nak-sakitkan-hati-masing-masing?
Waiting for Godot is the perfect example of how human being these days are lost and they do not know exactly what is their purpose of life.
Yes! That's it. Purpose. What is the purpose of being friends tapi asyik bergaduh-sampai-maki-hamun-antara-satu-sama-lain?
Bawak-bawaklah beristighfar.
Let's give ourselves some time, some space. Okay?
Revise balik our main intention. Nak berkawan kerana apa?
Sayangilah rakan anda kerana mereka akan berjiran dengan anda di akhirat nanti.
Takmau gaduh-gaduh OK?

Samuel Beckett, your piece of work is really an absurd one. I was lost when reading it.
Sambil membaca sambil berkata... "Ini cerita apa???? Tolonglaaah!"

Sekian ^_^

Semoga Allah lipat gandakan rezeki kita semua pada tahun ini dan tahun-tahun berikutnya. Dan sentiasa beri ketenangan hati pada kita.
Amin~

Smile people! Tomorrow is exam day =D

Love, Fathi.