words

I am always enticed by the beauty of the words of Allah.
You read the Qur'an, it's the greatest writing ever. Trust me. You actually feel that Your Lord is talking to you directly. Subhanallah. The moment when you read it, your heart vibrates. It is that powerful. The power of the words of Allah.

I am always fascinated by beautiful words combined in a sentence.
How smart people can combine words and make it into a beautiful sentence. And upon reading it you feel drifted and blown away into another kind of universe. Reading is like swimming in an ocean of thoughts. Cuba baca puisi..indah bukan?

I am always glued to beautiful words.
Because reading them just make your heart feels comfortable. It is like a soothing lullaby.

I am always amazed when looking at how simple simple words are used in super beautiful sentence which carries beautiful meaning. Masya-Allah.

words. they can actually build your emotions. especially when it is delivered with emotions and accepted with emotions.(of course not the negative ones..hee..)



Allah says:

He is with you wherever you are (Qur'an 57:4)

very calming and very assuring :') Subhanallah. Alhamdulillah.

Allah berpesan lagi:

Choose best words to speak and say them in the best possible way (Qur'an 17:53, Qur'an 2:83)

:) mari berkata-kata dengan perkataan yang baik.


Moga Allah Sayang :)
Night, earth people. Farewell.

Bila suka sangat melalut

Kan dah kena bebel. Padan muka. Bukan sorang yang membebel. Dua orang terus. Semua pun pedass, makan dalam, buat muka merah telinga merah (sebab maluu amat), buat saya rasa nak gigit telefon, minum air, kunyah kentang goreng, dan paling penting nak nangis... T_T sebab malu dengan diri sendiri dan orang yang tegur tu.. dan malu dengan Allah.

Assalamualaikum..

Saya baru lepas kena marah. Sebab saya melalut sangat lately ni.

Macam nilah. Sebab suka sangat melalut merepek mengarut fikir yang bukan2 ape semua ni kan..apa kata pause sekejap.

Stop.Berhenti...! Faham?

Duduk diam-diam. Diam. Diam je. Diam.

Jangan cakap apa-apa.

Kalau terfikir yang bukan-bukan, buat dek je. Sendiri fikir sudah. Pastu Istighfar laa banyak-banyak supaya semua fikiran negatif tu tak menular sampai rosakkan mood. Jangan sampai semua negative thoughts tu dizahirkan dalam bentuk statement atau soalan yang boleh buat orang keliling marah.

Jangan mengada nak cakap "kenapa la aku ni suka susahkan orang lain" atau "sorry sebab selalu susahkan awak" atau "saya ada susahkan awak tak? am I a burden to you?" (padahal takde pape pun yang terjadi untuk terlibat dalam adegan minta-maaf-saya-bersalah ni).

Distract yourself. Go read Qur'an. atau buat solat sunat. Sebab Allah je yang boleh hilangkan semua kekusutan yang kita rasa.

Trust me. Jangan mengarut sangat. Penat...Penaaat. Literally penat sebab melalut fikir entahapaapaentah.

I am going through a phase. I don't even know what kind. It's very tiring. I do sincerely hope that I will find a way out. Susah sikit jalan yang kita nak lalu ni..sobs. Semua orang pun tahu kan.. jihad tu mencabar.

Jihad kearah kebaikan.. semua pun mesti nak buat macam ni kan?

Tapi kena janji dulu jangan fikir yang bukan-bukan. Okay? Stay positif. Sangka baik selalu. Boleh..boleh.kita pasti boleh. Allah ada dengan kita. (Yakinkan diri sendiri sambil buat muka meyakinkan). Korang kena positif jugak. Ok? Good..good.. jangan jadi macam saya. Melalut merepek mengarut.


Moga Allah Sayang.
Farewell!

Jangan Tinggal Saya

Assalamualaikum..

Pernah rasa lost tak?

Recently, hati saya dilanda turmoil yang sangat dahsyat. Sehinggakan E update status di facebook berpesan supaya "Cherish the moment that you have now" dan saya..kaku..teringat semula pesanan beliau baru-baru ini, beliau kata jangan fikir banyak sangat. Baiklah. Sudah saya jangka..Saya tahu akan ditampar dengan kata-kata saat saya buka akaun Facebook.

Alhamdulillah. Pada hemat saya, saat Allah datangkan rasa sedih dan dukacita, itu tandanya Allah nak kita ingat pada Dia dan tandanya Allah rindu nak dengar kita mengadu pada Dia. Saya saksikan ramai kenalan yang dah berubah menjadi baik. Tapi saya tak nampak sebarang perubahan pada diri saya. Atau mungkin saya yang gagal untuk lihat sebarang perubahan. Atau..entahlah.

Bila kenalan paling rapat dengan saya sedang melalui transfromasi diri yang drastik, saya rasa ketinggalan. Sangat. Dalam hati saya cakap macam ni: "Kalau awak dalam perjalanan nak jadi baik, awak ajaklah saya sekali. Jangan tinggalkan saya" :'( Sobs. Ya. Saya rasa sangat ketinggalan. Tapi, apa yang saya nak sampaikan tidak terluah.

Mungkin kena muhasabah diri semula kenapa saya rasa ketinggalan sampai macam tu sekali. Saya rasa sangat sunyi. Macam tengah jalan2 dekat satu jalan yang gelap, ada lampu samar2. Masa mula berjalan, ada kawan di sebelah. Tiba-tiba kawan tu pergi macam tu je tinggalkan kita. Terpinga-pinga. Itu yang saya rasa. Tapi tak apa. Kawan saya tak salah. Saya berterima kasih pada Allah sebab hantar kawan saya untuk jadi wake up call pada saya. I guess I just needed that... T_T.... It came at the right moment.

Bila dah kena ignore, baru saya nak sedar diri. Bila dah kena tinggal sorang2 baru nak gelabah.

Tak apa. Saya yakin. Allah boleh bimbing saya dan Allah akan tunjukkan jalan. Walaupun sendirian. Subhanallah. Hebatnya Allah sebab hantar peringatan pada saya melalui cara yang macam ni.

I guess I just have to be strong. Permulaan kepada sesuatu perkara memang selalunya sukar.
Allah dekat. Sangat dekat dengan kita. Kita tak akan sendiri. Tak akan :)

"And when My servants ask you, [O Muhammad], concerning Me - indeed I am near. I respond to the invocation of the supplicant when he calls upon Me. So let them respond to Me [by obedience] and believe in Me that they may be [rightly] guided." (Al-Baqarah:186)

Pada yang pernah rasa lost dan rasa kena tinggal macam ni..jangan sedih2 ek. Penat sebenarnya nak lalui rasa sedih tu sorang2. Tapi sebenarnya, kita tak sorang2 pun. Allah kan ada :) Meh. Jom jalan sama-sama dengan saya *senyum lebar-lebar*

p/s: How I wish I can say "Jangan tinggal saya" sambil buat muka saya-nak-ikut-awak-jadi-baik-jugak.


Farewell!

Reminiscing Sabah: Day Four & Day Five - 27th & 28th Sept

I still remember how it was waktu pergi Sabah last year. It was like 'THE MOMENT' of realization. Not that I know it will end this way. Ehem.

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So, kalau datang Sabah, rumah Pak Bong, tapi tak tour Pekan Keningau ... tak sah la kan? Heheh. Kiranya Hari Empat, memang jalan-jalan Keningau jelah. And it was actually a day off for Kak Et jugak. Sebab esoknya kita nak pergi ke Kota Kinabalu. Definitely kena dapatkan rehat. ^_____^
Selama ni dengar Keningau je beribu-ribu kali. Hah. Sekarang, jalan sampai puas. Heheh. Naaiss..

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Hari Lima. We went to Kota Kinabalu. Both me and Kak Et. Akak bawa ikut Jalan Kimanis. Nak tunjuk gunung tinggi kata beliau. It was indeed a breathtaking scenery! Memang...Subhanallah =) Cantik. Sangat.
We stopped for a while dekat Papar. Beli kuih cincin yang Makcik Nor dan Pak Bong bawa balik ke Semenanjung selalu tu. Mehehe. And...Belacan jugak. Tapi, I dunno what happen to all of the belacan now. Sebab saya tak makan belacan barangkali? Memangg...pastu tak tanya khabar pun kat belacan tu. Hahaaa.. Habis dah la kot kan? Keh3. Pastu we met sepupu kak Et...and I met her and I was amazed sebaab....my cousin ada Chinese cousins..wuwuwu. Awesome. Oh....DAAN selepas itu......Kami lalu Banjaran Crocker. Yang kita belajar kat dalam subjek Geografi tulah...haaaa.... I dah lalu... Keh3.

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Sampai Kota Kinabalu, we went to tengok laut. Rindu pulak dekat moment tu. Just me and kak Et. heheh. Pastu akak bawak pergi solat di Masjid Terapung. Subhanallah. Cantik. Dan.. Best =) Lepas dah siap semua urusan kak Et bawak jalan-jalan setakat untuk petang tersebut, we headed off to rumah kawan kak Et. Masih ada aura Syawal kan. Jadi..kita pergi berjalan raya. Haha. bukan jalan raya yang jalan raya untuk kenderaan tu. Tapi jalan raya. Whatever. Oh dan, what I remembered the most adalah...
KAWAN2 BAIK KAK ET SANGAT CANTIK.
Dan....anak kawan kak Et sangaaaaaaaaat comel.......Subhanallah...
Rasa macam...nak kawin dengan orang yang ada Chinese look boleh? Heheh.

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Malam. Kita tidur di rumah Pak Bong yang di Kota Kinabalu. Ada Abang Arif kat sana. Abang Arif handsome. Hahahaha. Ok. This was the moment. Which I could not forget. The most.

Dah 29hb September waktu tu.

Kita dah lama kenal. 8 bulan. Kalau kita pasangan suami isteri, probably, sekarang awak pregnant our baby nak masuk bulan ketujuh dah.

Dropped jaw. Literally. Dropped jaw.
O____O"????

What was that Tan Sri? I thought your heart was with someone else. Why used me as an example? I was....cemas for real at that time. Perasaan tak boleh dibuat main. I takleh reverse dah time tu. Dah jauh sangat rasanya. And I was ... pasrah. If it is meant for me, I am very much grateful. If not...tak mengapa. Sebab I was still positive in helping you to get in touch with my senior. Sebab that was what you asked for. Remember?

Pandai Tan Sri eh bagi ujian dekat saya...

And the mengaji session was nice by the way ^_^

Ok. Enough of my rambling session.

I miss Kak Et. Sangat banyak.

A Note to Self

Bismillahirrahmahirrahim

I was so happy that I passed the plagiarism software's basic requirements recently. And of course, I felt overjoyed. Overjoyed. Ok. Sekarang boleh foresee what's going to happen next? Kehkehkeh.

I was sitting next to my senior while doing my work and then..she informed me about her percentage that she got as the requirement to pass the plagiarism software. I was so kagum! Like seriously kagum. She got lower percentage than me. And suddenly a sinking emotion was developing inside me. Great.Now whaaattt.... -_-''

Oklah.Oklah..Bukan envy. Bukan envy. I am sure that it is not a feeling of jealousy. I am super happy for her sebab she passed it with flying colors. Truly, I am happy for her.
Tapi..tapi... I feel like... Kenapa la aku tak pandai macam dia? Struggle sampai nangis-nangis pastu baru dapat lepas software tu. Kakak tu buat tenang-tenang je...then boleh pass dengan mudah. wuwuwu. It is the inferior me talking..!!
Now can you see the comparing business??

Not good. Not good..

I should punish myself for having this kind of attitude.

Sekarang cuba tengok apa Hadith 1 pesan pada kita:

It is narrated on the authority of Amir al-Mu'minin (Leader of the Believers), Abu Hafs 'Umar bin al-Khattab (may Allah be pleased with him), who said: I heard the Messenger of Allah (peace be upon him), say:

"Actions are according to intentions, and everyone will get what was intended. Whoever migrates with an intention for Allah and His messenger, the migration will be for the sake of Allah and his Messenger. And whoever migrates for worldly gain or to marry a woman, then his migration will be for the sake of whatever he migrated for."

Related by Bukhari & Muslim

Source: http://www.40hadithnawawi.com/index.php/the-hadiths/hadith-1

Subhanallah..

Sekarang tengok balik niat sendiri. Mungkin I finished my work with the niat to get high marks. Bukan sebab ilmu..wuwuwu..
Astaghfirullahal'azim.

Kakak, saya sukakan anda. Saya admire anda. Saya tidak cemburu, cuma kecewa dengan diri sendiri T_T"

May Allah forgive us and guide us to the right path. Allahumma Amin...

Reminiscing Sabah - Day Three - 26th Sept

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Morning. We went to Lahad Datu. It was a sudden plan because one of Pak Bong's students meninggal dunia. It was at Kg. Bugis. And I asked Kak Et, kenapa nama kampung tu Bugis? The answer is simple. Ramai orang Bugis. We went there and waited until the it was over. We even went to tanah perkuburan and me and Kak Et watched from far how the jenazah was dikebumikan. It was...for me..a lifetime experience. Because, I got to see the jenazah close up. And my nose remembered the smell of the jenazah until the night when we arrived home. Gaaahh...Faathinah and her mindset problems.
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After all that was over, we went to Pasar Lahad Datu and bought lots of ikan and udang. So many udang...! I cannot eat udang T_T such a waste. If only I brought with me my allergic medicines, I would have the opportunity to eat all the big big big and delicious UDANG.
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Then we stopped for prayers on our way back to Keningau at one of the mosques dekat tepi jalan. Pak Bong kata masa Pak Tan datang Sabah, they went to the same mosque as well. Hahaha. Saya pun dah sampai.... =P


It was a great comfort to have such a kind company...on the line.
Hehe. Well, dear you, I am very much thankful sebab anda sudi sms dengan saya.

Kak Et, pada hari tersebut, lutut beliau lebam..sebab beliau terlanggar err...pintu kereta kalau tak silap. Kesian lutut beliau.

Kurang matangnya saya...Hihi

Assalamualaikum..

Eid Mubarak..

^_^ Semoga Allah melindungi kita dibawah rahmat kasih-sayangNya sentiasa.

Tadi I was looking back at my older posts..and reading them made me laugh, with great err..humility.
I was weighing myself.
Soooo immature..and..not that professional. Bhahaha..kata free flow wiriting kan..
But it does reflect my personality. It improves as time passes by. Alhamdulillah.
No more vulgar words... (Vulgar words banyak ke?? Hisshh....)
And....maturity seems to like....ada sikitlah kalau tak banyak pun. Boleh senyum bahagia tak sekarang? heheh.

Aaand....because of maintenance and changing of formats...ada beberapa posts yang tak boleh dibaca and I have to re-edit them as soon as possible.

Dr.Rosli's advice banyak kali dah bergema dekat telinga.

Critical Reading.... Critical Reading.....  READING....... REAAAADD.....

Hahahaha.

OK Dr.Rosli. Got the message, Sir!

Will start reading, right away ^_^

Take care lovelies..!