Close Your Eyes

When laziness creeps in, the world seems to move faster.

Super fast.

I feel like closing my eyes and stay still in my room

Doing nothing

Staring at the ceiling

Looking at the fan spinning

and

Continue daydreaming.

I just needed that to break away from reality.

Too much pressure around.

I cannot cope.

I am drowning.

Nobody is right and Nobody is wrong here.

I have never felt euphoric so high.

Euphoric to see that one person.

My new addiction.

I abandoned the rest of my addictions in life

to give full attention to my new addiction.

If the new addiction brings me a brighter future, 

it will be such a great happiness.

But..

I should not be doing this.

Addiction is never a good thing if it pulls you down.

I MUST stay FOCUS.

Missions should be completed.

By next year,

I am a free girl who will continue living life in peace.
 Leaving behind those people who has made me weak.

I shall be strong.
May the forces be with me.
May Allah ease the way.

New addiction,
Stay with me if you are kind enough to bring me to a brighter future.

Saya mahu hidup yang ada makna.
Awak mungkin orangnya yang boleh jadi teman seperjuangan.


Done.
Now, the panadol should be swallowed.
The migraine will get worst if I refused to.


New addiction, may you be the one.
Myself, please stay focus.
Missions are waiting to be accomplished.