A Note to Self

Bismillahirrahmahirrahim

I was so happy that I passed the plagiarism software's basic requirements recently. And of course, I felt overjoyed. Overjoyed. Ok. Sekarang boleh foresee what's going to happen next? Kehkehkeh.

I was sitting next to my senior while doing my work and then..she informed me about her percentage that she got as the requirement to pass the plagiarism software. I was so kagum! Like seriously kagum. She got lower percentage than me. And suddenly a sinking emotion was developing inside me. Great.Now whaaattt.... -_-''

Oklah.Oklah..Bukan envy. Bukan envy. I am sure that it is not a feeling of jealousy. I am super happy for her sebab she passed it with flying colors. Truly, I am happy for her.
Tapi..tapi... I feel like... Kenapa la aku tak pandai macam dia? Struggle sampai nangis-nangis pastu baru dapat lepas software tu. Kakak tu buat tenang-tenang je...then boleh pass dengan mudah. wuwuwu. It is the inferior me talking..!!
Now can you see the comparing business??

Not good. Not good..

I should punish myself for having this kind of attitude.

Sekarang cuba tengok apa Hadith 1 pesan pada kita:

It is narrated on the authority of Amir al-Mu'minin (Leader of the Believers), Abu Hafs 'Umar bin al-Khattab (may Allah be pleased with him), who said: I heard the Messenger of Allah (peace be upon him), say:

"Actions are according to intentions, and everyone will get what was intended. Whoever migrates with an intention for Allah and His messenger, the migration will be for the sake of Allah and his Messenger. And whoever migrates for worldly gain or to marry a woman, then his migration will be for the sake of whatever he migrated for."

Related by Bukhari & Muslim

Source: http://www.40hadithnawawi.com/index.php/the-hadiths/hadith-1

Subhanallah..

Sekarang tengok balik niat sendiri. Mungkin I finished my work with the niat to get high marks. Bukan sebab ilmu..wuwuwu..
Astaghfirullahal'azim.

Kakak, saya sukakan anda. Saya admire anda. Saya tidak cemburu, cuma kecewa dengan diri sendiri T_T"

May Allah forgive us and guide us to the right path. Allahumma Amin...

Reminiscing Sabah - Day Three - 26th Sept

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Morning. We went to Lahad Datu. It was a sudden plan because one of Pak Bong's students meninggal dunia. It was at Kg. Bugis. And I asked Kak Et, kenapa nama kampung tu Bugis? The answer is simple. Ramai orang Bugis. We went there and waited until the it was over. We even went to tanah perkuburan and me and Kak Et watched from far how the jenazah was dikebumikan. It was...for me..a lifetime experience. Because, I got to see the jenazah close up. And my nose remembered the smell of the jenazah until the night when we arrived home. Gaaahh...Faathinah and her mindset problems.
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After all that was over, we went to Pasar Lahad Datu and bought lots of ikan and udang. So many udang...! I cannot eat udang T_T such a waste. If only I brought with me my allergic medicines, I would have the opportunity to eat all the big big big and delicious UDANG.
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Then we stopped for prayers on our way back to Keningau at one of the mosques dekat tepi jalan. Pak Bong kata masa Pak Tan datang Sabah, they went to the same mosque as well. Hahaha. Saya pun dah sampai.... =P


It was a great comfort to have such a kind company...on the line.
Hehe. Well, dear you, I am very much thankful sebab anda sudi sms dengan saya.

Kak Et, pada hari tersebut, lutut beliau lebam..sebab beliau terlanggar err...pintu kereta kalau tak silap. Kesian lutut beliau.

Kurang matangnya saya...Hihi

Assalamualaikum..

Eid Mubarak..

^_^ Semoga Allah melindungi kita dibawah rahmat kasih-sayangNya sentiasa.

Tadi I was looking back at my older posts..and reading them made me laugh, with great err..humility.
I was weighing myself.
Soooo immature..and..not that professional. Bhahaha..kata free flow wiriting kan..
But it does reflect my personality. It improves as time passes by. Alhamdulillah.
No more vulgar words... (Vulgar words banyak ke?? Hisshh....)
And....maturity seems to like....ada sikitlah kalau tak banyak pun. Boleh senyum bahagia tak sekarang? heheh.

Aaand....because of maintenance and changing of formats...ada beberapa posts yang tak boleh dibaca and I have to re-edit them as soon as possible.

Dr.Rosli's advice banyak kali dah bergema dekat telinga.

Critical Reading.... Critical Reading.....  READING....... REAAAADD.....

Hahahaha.

OK Dr.Rosli. Got the message, Sir!

Will start reading, right away ^_^

Take care lovelies..!

Just let go if it is not meant to be yours

Assalamualaikum

It is true when it comes to the saying of "We have no control over our hearts". Who then controls our hearts if it not us? Allah. HE has the power and the ability to turn over your heart preferences at any time of the day. No doubt. Therefore, what you can do is to always make du'a and ask Allah to protect you from any hardships in life. Well, just let us put it this way. If things are not meant to be for us, we should just forget about it and move on. No use to lament over things that have passed as it will affect your life completely. Negativity does not bring any fruits of positivity in life. You do know about that right?

When life gets hard and you realized that nothing is under your control, that is when you have to realize that our life in this world serves only for one ultimate purpose. 'Ubudiyyah. Everything must be set and targeted as an Ibadah to Allah. Remember lovelies =) Total submission to Allah is our main goal in life. That is what Islam is all about. And this very business is not depressing at all! Believe me =)

Oklah, contohnya..I want to be friends with Anuar Zain so bad...but it will just not work out, you know. The possibility is just too small and it is almost near to no hope, at all. So what do we do? Just move on lah. You are not going to die. And nothing bad is going to happen to you if you cannot be friends with Anuar Zain, kan? Alaaa...Anuar Zain je... Tak ada apa sangatlaah..

And let's say...you want to be friends with Ameen Misran, a popular blogger, or Maria Elena, a popular blogger as well..BUT you just could not get the opportunity to do that. It will not be something that is very depressing for you kan? Well, sometimes, we just could not get certain things in life and we have to live with that fact. =) You can still watch them from far kan? And that is .... good enough , I guess? He he he.
Well, be a stalker lah. And follow good things from them. They will get the rewards from Allah as well. Allahumma Amin. In Sha Allah.. Be a ... good stalker okay? ^_^ (Haha.. I am a good observer. Macam buruk je jadi stalker).

And...if .... if.... you are not meant to be with the love of your life... Just be strong okay? I am sure that Allah has better plans for you. Sometimes, kalau orang dah tak suka, kita tak boleh nak paksa kan? Yelah, bukan kita yang control hati manusia... I know it can be hurtful...and like a total disaster. But, please lovelies...just remember...ALLAH sentiasa ada untuk kita ^_^

If.... (Nauzubillah) It happens to be that the person I admire so much leave me to be with a better person, (Contoh, he pilih another girl yang way too nice from me..way too beautiful from me...and way too precious than me) .. I will force myself to accept the fact that he does not want me anymore. Mungkin jodoh dia dengan saya sekejap sahaja. Kan? Tak apa...as long as Allah takkan tinggalkan saya. I have HIM. That is more than enough. Plus, bagus apa kalau dia dapat kahwin dengan perempuan yang lebih baik =) Maybe..I will be brokenhearted and choose to apply the detachment strategy for quite some time if that happens. But that will not last for too long. I will find ways and get ready with possible and workable back up plans to move on with my life. In Sha Allah...moga Allah sentiasa bantu saya untuk jadi yang lebih baik. Walaupun.....heartbroken bukan perkara yang main-main...tapi, Allah je yang boleh sembuhkan luka hati kita.

Ah. Talking about rejection is a never ending business kan?

Saya Faham.

And forgive me sebab I feel like writing about this malam ni.

Innnallahama'assobirin...

Dear you, I hope you will live a happy life, with or without me =)

Demi Allah

Demi Allah,

Saya sayang beliau.

Semoga Allah jadikan kami jiran didalam Syurga Allah nanti.

Mohon Allah sentiasa berkati kehidupan beliau dan keluarga.

Mohon Allah kekalkan ukhwah kami.

Walaupun saya kata Bukit Kayu Hitam dekat Johor, beliau dengan bersahaja gelakkan saya dan pujuk saya supaya jangan stress sangat.

:') Allah
Saya sayang beliau.

Sangat sangat.

Too Much

Assalamualaikum..

Kekadang, kita tak sangka pun kita akan buat sesuatu yang kita tak pernah jangka kita akan buat.

Yes, sometimes, we have gone too much.
We have gone too far.
Leka sampai tak ada yang sedar kita dah jauh sangat pergi.
Tak ada yang boleh tarik kita, selamatkan kita.
Masa tu, satu je tempat kita nak minta bantuan.
ALLAH.

Orang kata, bila dah susah, baru nak cari Allah.
Tapi, better kita ada rasa nak kembali daripada tak ada rasa langsung. Ya bukan?

Tan Sri sangat baik. Saya..speechless.
I have caused so much pain for us. Yet, you still forgive me and say nice and soothing words to me.
I couldn't ask for more.
If it is destined for us to reach that very destination, I am very much grateful.
Kalau tak sampai ke penghujung perjalanan, mohon Allah kurniakan Redha.

Tan Sri asked me to listened to this.

Sami Yusuf, Make Me Strong.

Terima Kasih Tan Sri.

Define MA #1

Assalamualaikum..

Salam bahagia koraaang..!

Aie, saya tahu awak tak suka orang guna Salam Bahagia, tapi saya nak guna jugak harini :D

I am currently having MASTERS DILEMMA. I wanted to label it as REGRET sebenarnya but that doesn't sound optimistic at all. In fact, I did not regret pun my decision to pursue my study up to this level. Mengada-ngadalah kalau nak regret bila dah start sekarang ni. Memang nak mintak kena marah dari banyak pihak laaah. Haha. Tak. Tak. Tak menyesal pun. Alhamdulillah sebab Allah bagi peluang ni pada saya :)

I would say that the curiosity within has been awakened by now. It is only the first week of the  semester but I am very much overwhelmed with everything. Every single thing. I am soooo curious to know what will happen next. Baru first week dah rasa macam nak nangis..camana la the upcoming weeks nanti. Mungkin akan tersenyum bahagia? Hee.. mari ber-wishful thinking. As days passed by, I have realised that MA programme requires one to actually strive for the best.
Memang takleh nak bermalas-malasan dah macam time degree dulu.

You hate reading? Then do not continue up to this path.
You are tired of doing research? Then..it will be hard for you to live a life.
T_T taak tipu nii......

My dilemma is just...nak continue ke nak stop. Bhahaha.. teruknya perangaai. Just because of Research Methods punya subject, I am all drained and strained and.. *insert more dramatic words* kakaka.

Oklah, to cut things short, semua orang harus ada satu perkara penting ni sebelum nak sambung MA in Literature; in fact in any MA programmes, which is:

                     
                      KNOW what YOUR PASSION is.
Aaand...
               HAVE A TOPIC in mind :)


SO......during your undergraduates, try to look at possible and interesting and manageable and potential topics for research purpose :) if you have already decided on what to talk about and what to write for your thesis or dissertation, then...you are SAFE AND SOUND!

Kalau tak ada pun tak apa....but it can be a real pain for you because you will have to find a suitable topic in a hurry and in a rushing and in a very....unpleasant environment and mood. Haha. (which I am experiencing currently).

And to define Masters is the need to have a good networking with people around you. See.... Tengok.... Betapa Islam pun dah tekankan tentang ini dan ianya tidak tertakluk hanya untuk definisi Masters sahaja. To have a good network and strong relationship with others is actually a bonus for you! One thing that is most important about this is the fact that they will be willing to pray for you! Don't you underestimate the power of Du'a. Doa itu adalah senjata Mu'min. Hopefully Allah will make us be one of the Mu'mineen.

For now, I just have this to be delivered in here. Ah..I dah muntahkan segalanya in here in the most simplest form. Bhahaha. It has just been a week and my brain is almost reaching to the 'fatigue' state. (Hiperbola ni..hiperbola).

Salam Sayang dan..

Assalamualaikum ^_^