Feb 22, 2013

#random1

He closed his eyes and took a deep breath.
"Is this possible?" Asked him.
"I have told myself, I would never fall for anyone else."
Doubt has come to pay a visit.

But the moment when he saw her, his heart refused to beat at a normal pace.
That was not normal.
This girl has an aura. Unique.
His heart just could not resist.

I bet this must be the devil's work.
He was very sure that he was getting himself into a great trouble.
Trying his best, he did ignore what his heart was feeling at that moment.

He knew that his heart has become cold.
Cold as ice.
Especially when it creates an unending confusion.
His heart has been stepped on so violently.
He would never repeat the same mistake.

But.
But..that very girl gave him a sudden warmth.
He had wish to have that kind of warmth before.
He longed for that warmth.
To him, it is very comforting.
Yes. Now his heart refused to just simply chase her away.

He made a decision.
To break the coldness of his heart,
With a little touch of her warmth.

Sure.
He does not want the past to come and visit him.
The girl saved him.
He now believes in that. Strongly.

"Okay, I am now certain. I shall take her with me. She will be mine from today onwards. Say yes to a new tablet...!!!!"

Okay, finally, the boy gets his new tablet and he really feels that the new gadget is err...his new girlfriend.
*sigh*
Gila gadget punya manusia.

Jan 4, 2013

Didikan

Bukan mudah untuk mendidik
Minda beritahu akal
Itu hakikat.
Perhati diri
Mudahkah mendidik hati?
Liar. 

Sukar dikawal,
Terutama saat minda dan hati tidak sekufu.

Ibu Ayah contoh terunggul.
Susah payah mendidik anak-anak.
Terkadang, hasilnya mengagumkan.
Terkadang, hampa di tengah jalan.
Tidak semua yang diharapkan menjadi.

Soal mendidik hati.
Terkadang tersungkur.
Jadi api di siang hari.
Dingin sedingin salju di tengahari.
Hangat kerana dengki di malam hari.
Bila waktu tenang menyelinap?
Ada ruang kah untuk rasa kasih?

Kerana kurang didikan, 
hati sukar dibentuk.
Sukar dipujuk.
Terkadang, jadi keras,
macam batu.

Usaha itu perlu,
dalam mendidik.
Pastinya perlu berterusan.
Tanpa rasa putus asa.

Didik hati ke arah kebaikan.
Ajar dia selalu tenang.
Nasihat dia, selalu kuat.
Jangan kalah sembarangan.
Perlu teguh setiap masa.

Hati kita milik Dia.
Apa pun terlintas, Dia tahu.
Niat murni perlu ada.
Agar Dia tahu kita mahu berubah.
Dia lihat pada usaha.
Jangan gusar.
Kerana Dia ada
Setiap langkah, kita punya teman.
DIA ada. 
Yakin.


Didik saya ke arah kebaikan.
Saya suka bila anda nasihat saya.

Terima kasih.




Jan 2, 2013

Care to share? I'm ready to listen.

Phone's vibrating. Oh. An incoming call.
"Assalamualaikum."

"Waalaikumussalam. How's your progress? Ready to talk about Shakespeare tomorrow?"

"Not sure. Haven't done final revision yet."

"Kenapa macam tak sure ni? Come. Share what you know. My intention is to test you. Let's pretend like this is a pre-exam session."

"So nice of you. Thank you." 


Conversation ends.

Concentrate on getting well soon okay? I'll be fine, InsyaAllah.


****

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.


Mari test! Okay. First and foremost, Shakespeare is not a learned man. He is not a man who went to universities and learn drama or literature formally. However, even though he is not scholarly, his presentation of work is very great and the evidence is that he was considered as one of the great Elizabethan writers.

Just so you know, Elizabethan era or..during this zaman, it was when Queen Elizabeth reigned. Therefore, Elizabethan drama refers to the plays produced while Queen Elizabeth was in power in England and that was from 1558 until 1603.

Kalau nak tahu, it was during this time lah the entertainment industry during Elizabethan period prosper. Because the public started or began to attend plays in large number. That's cute. Attend tengok drama secara berjemaah. Tapi..tapi..they watch drama or plays at an open space and it wasn't at all like how we watch theatre today where everyone is silent and pay attention to the actors' performance. During Shakespeare's time, watching a play is like in today's example, like you watch a music band performing. People walk, and eat, and talk, and they just cannot sit still. One more thing to note, during this time jugaklah all the prostitution berleluasa and plague was started or should I say..err...merebak? Yes. Sebab unhygienic place people spent time at. Most famous theater and the home of many Shakespeare's plays were performed was the Globe Theater (1599).

Shakespear's canonical works are:
37 plays were written

154 sonnets were composed
and...2 long narrative poems were written.

He was a famous figure in tragedy plays. Kiranya, he's like an expert in writing tragedy plays lah. Because the message is well delivered to the audience and the plot is organised in a very impressive manner. The beauty of the language used by him is also one of the main important elements in Shakespeare's writing. Among the great tragedies produced were Hamlet, Macbeth, King Lear and Othello. In all these four tragedies, it focuses on the tragic hero presented in the plays. Whereby every tragic hero has his own tragic flaw. Their own tragic flaws are the main reason or cause of their downfall. They come from a noble background and they are known as the great, important figures in a society. Example, King, Prince..or any noble man. The reason as to why they have to be an important figure is mainly because, the higher their status are, the harder they will fall in the end. So, Tragedy in Elizabethan era must end with catastrophe like the death of the main character, or senang cerita, the death of the tragic hero. This in return will invoke catharsis in the audience. So, basically, because of the tragic hero's tragic flaw, they actually learned something and they know that what they have done is wrong. Therefore, they get the moral lesson soon before dying. That's awesome, isn't it?
I love Macbeth the most. Oh, and Hamlet. And King Lear. So kesian lah all of them. Memang catharsis itu wujud semasa membaca tragedi-tragedi tersebut.

Not only that, Shakespeare is famous for his comedies as well. One thing to note is that,

Shakespeare does not follow exactly the Aristotle's Poetic rule. The rule is, the unity of action, the unity of time, the unity of place. His plots are complex but it is integrated. As I mentioned before, his plots are very impressive. Aaand.. Madam Farizah said, he is very good at plotting the play proving that he is a skillful storyteller. He invented new way of writing his work by mixing the genres. Yes. A mixed genre.
And usually:
1. In his comedy, it always begins with a great conflict and has tragic elements.

2. In his tragedy, there is the element of jokes. Yes. Jokes.

So, one of the comedies is Twelfth Night. Have you guys watched She's The Man? Dah tengok kan? Okay, 
that movie is the adaptation of Shakespeare's Twelfth Night.

Okay...should I continue with sonnet?
No...
No...Tak larat....
InsyaAllah..ingat points..and I can membebel in exam kejap lagi.


Exam is at 3pm.
Pray for me loves!


Oh, Allah..mohon dipermudahkan segalanya. Amin.

Love, Fathi.

Jan 1, 2013

Blissful

1 Jan 2013

Lagi 4 minit jam menunjukkan pukul 9 pagi. Ya, pukul 9 pagi.
*Click* 
Handphone saya mengeluarkan bunyi. Oh, ada sms.

Sender: Z

Text:
"sori mms busuk anda xdpt msuk ke dlm henset beta yg teragong ini"

Oh..beliau. MMS tempoh hari? Heheh. Tidak mengapa kalau tak dapat pun. MMS tu bertujuan untuk meng-jeles-kan anda je sebenarnya. Biasalah, manusia kan nak gaduh je kerjanya kalau tak puas hati. You sent me MMS yang sgt tak cool ok. So I berniat nak balas bagi you jeles. Gambar Shake Herbalife Perisa Antibiotik je pun. Tapi, you didn't get the MMS pun kan? Nampak sgt niat I tak baik *Malu dgn diri sendiri* 
Sorry anyways. You lah asyik sakitkan hati I. [wekk..ape I you I you ni...!]
No big deal mister. Takpe.Takpe.

Harap maaf. Reply saya dalam hati: 

"sori sms anda xdpt di-reply oleh diri beta yang hensem teramat ini. Ingat janji 2013 beta? Yeah. Akan beta kotakan janji tersebut. Live well."

Di atas adalah salah satu daripada contoh tema di dalam Waiting for Godot (1953) ke 1952? Confused. Written by Samuel Beckett. Nama manja, Samuel Basket, coined by Ms. Suhailah in 2012. The example above illustrated the theme of nothingness. Why nothingness?
Because all I can see is the element of nothingness in the relationship if it continues.
Being in a friend-zone will definitely not bring any positive progress because both of us will end up fighting on small and unimportant things. Friends do not do that. Being in a more-than-a-friend-zone will even more bring zero benefits. This is due to the unending fights and unimportant topics discussed by both of us. No progress too. No improvement, stagnant, therefore, nothingness.
How can a relationship be the medium for us to gain rewards? Well, when you do good things for each other and when you appreciate one another and when you know there are benefits for both of you in the relationship. Especially benefits yang boleh pandu kita ke arah jalan Allah. Bukan the feeling of uncertainty and perasaan kita-ni-dah-kenapa-asyik-nak-sakitkan-hati-masing-masing?

Waiting for Godot is the perfect example of how human being these days are lost and they do not know exactly what is their purpose of life.
Yes! That's it. Purpose. What is the purpose of being friends tapi asyik bergaduh-sampai-maki-hamun-antara-satu-sama-lain?
Bawak-bawaklah beristighfar.

Let's give ourselves some time, some space. Okay?
Revise balik our main intention. Nak berkawan kerana apa?
Sayangilah rakan anda kerana mereka akan berjiran dengan anda di akhirat nanti.
Takmau gaduh-gaduh OK?

Samuel Beckett, your piece of work is really an absurd one. I was lost when reading it.
Sambil membaca sambil berkata... "Ini cerita apa???? Tolonglaaah!"


Sekian ^_^

Semoga Allah lipat gandakan rezeki kita semua pada tahun ini dan tahun-tahun berikutnya. Dan sentiasa beri ketenangan hati pada kita.
Amin~

Smile people! Tomorrow is exam day =D

Love, Fathi.

Dec 30, 2012


AMARAN: Entry merepek. Sorry for wasting your time. Please do not read if you have no leisure time.

Dua orang anak muda dalam KTM. Dalam perjalanan menuju ke Seremban. Bukan Tiroi. Haha.
DI sebelah kiri coach, ada tingkap. Jadi, boleh lihat pemandangan di luar. Hari siang dan matahari dengan jayanya memancarkan sinaran beliau. Awesome.
Ada banyak tumbuhan liar di luar tingkap. Oh, di tepi landasan kereta api untuk lebih spesifik.
Dua orang anak muda sedang berbual untuk menghilangkan bosan dalam perjalanan. Dan untuk menghilangkan awkward silence.

Anak muda 1: Awak, tahu pokok apa kat luar tu?
(Yang kelihatan, spesis lalang, pisang dan..pokok lain yang tidak diketahui spesisnya)

Anak muda 2: Eleh. Senang je. Awak tahu ke pokok apa?

Anak muda 1: Awak tak tahu? Betul ni?

Anak muda 2: Pokok apa? -_-  (dalam hati berkata, muka dia macam nak kenakan orang je)

Anak muda 1: Pokok Kiambang tu. (sambil sengih-sengih)

Anak muda 2: eleh..tipu   -_- (kan dah agak. Ingat orang tak tau pokok kiambang macam mana agaknya)

Anak muda 1: Betullah. Tak percaya sudah. (Muka puas hati dapat kenakan orang) Hah. Yang tu pokok apa? Saya bagi peluang awak teka sekali lagi.

Anak muda 2: Yang tu saya tahu. Pokok pisang. 

Anak muda 1: Pandai pun.. (masih lagi muka-nak-kenakan-orang)

Anak muda 2 teramatlah pending. Aduhai..
Sekian. Perbualan di dalam perjalanan ke Seremban. Bukan Tiroi. Mehehe.


Situasi: Perbualan telefon
Saya: Awak ok?

Dia: Ok. Awak ok?

Saya: Saya? Saya ok je. Heheh.

Dia: Kenapa awak suka tanya macam tu?

Saya: Saja-saja. Awak ok tak? (Bhahahaha….bestnya buat macam ni. I feel normal)

Dia: Saya ok…. (sila panjangkan harakat OK tersebut)

Situasi: Saya dan Syafiqah

Saya: Syaf OK?

Syaf: OK. Tinah OK?

Saya: OK jugak.

Both of us akan senyum dan gelak at the same time. YES we are OKAY. LOL.

What is wrong with me?
Well..I am okay. Just so you know. Hahaha.

Dec 29, 2012

Somewhere Only We Know

It is a song title.
I know.
To You, I wish we can turn back the hands of clock.
And went back to the time when we first met.
And pretend like we do not know each other.
I would just know you as a stranger.
Who has no importance in my life.
I know, it sounded harsh.
But, oh, man. You ask for it.
I didn't know things would go wrong this way.
I've never dream of something like this to happen.
To be away from you.
To be a stranger to you.

What has happened?
You made it clear that nothing is going to be a reality.
I didn't know you were serious back then.
Well, you know how manusia these days.
Suka cakap tipu.
Janji manismu all the time.
That was the reason why I did not believe in any of your words.
Inche, even though those memories,
and those places
are the ones that only both of us know, 
I do not care.
I will remember. But will not try to cherish the memories.
It has now gone.
Trust me.
Allah knows best.
Sometimes, I feel the sympathy creeping in.
But, there are times when my heart says, "enough".

Oh, thank you for waking me up.
You are never serious.
Even when it is time to be serious.

Because of your ego and degil-ness, 
I made it through now.
I am free.
I am happy.
Super happy.
I, now, have someones who would be willing to help me
 to get through all the hardships in life.
Dengan ikhlas.
I do not need you.
Go. Fly free.
You, too, do not need me any longer.
Those someones are more precious to me.

Jangan pertikaikan mengapa
Saya pilih mereka daripada anda.

To my sweethearts <3
Saya sayang anda.
 Yes, you ;)



Dec 28, 2012

Kisah 2 - Ayah & Ibu's Kayla Marissa

Kayla Marissa
Yang cantik dan sopan-santun.

Alololo..comelnya.
Ibu said, she looks like me ;) Tahniah Along Afiq and Kak Kemy. Yay! Ibu dan ayah dah ada cucu. I haven't got the chance to meet the newly born little princess yet. Best lah Hilmy dgn Angah Hadry, dah ada anak saudara. Aww...bestnya! I was super excited masa jumpa Ibu on last wednesday.

Me: Ibu, siapa nama baby Along?

Ibu: Kayla Marissa. Pernah dengar tak nama macam tu?

Me: Belum pernah lagi. waah..sedapnya nama. Modern nama baby.

Ibu: Maksudnya yang cantik dan yang sopan-santun. Ibu nak tengoklah nanti dah besar macam  mana. Kot terlompat-lompat jugak macam Along Afiq dulu, Ibu nak cakap dekat Along, tang mana yang sopannya? *Ibu gelak bersungguh-sungguh*
Me: Haha...alahai bu..biasalah budak kecik... So comel. Nama sedap... ^__^

Ayah and Ibu.

They are my second parents after Umi and Abah ^_^

Tahniah ^_^ lepas ni Angah Odin punya turn pulak lah kan?

Selamat Bertunang Angah ^_^
Nanti orang datang time wedding Angah ye. 

So near yet so far.
Oh, Shakespeare harus diberi perhatian terlebih dahulu.